It’s your eyes that kill me
Your eyes that rip me to shreds telling me I’ll never be enough
One glance and I crumble into a million pieces
begging for your forgiveness
That look I get when I stare at you for too long feels like I’m tied up
and I’m searching through your eyes for any signs of forgiveness
but not finding any
It’s your mouth
Your mouth that could talk up a storm
but that’s not fair because every sound feels almost as if I’m a bubble
floating through the air waiting to explode
Your mouth is a knife
Every word is a stab
Every question is a wound
Every sentence is slice, cutting me open, prepping me for torture
Now everyone knows that you’ve been killing me softly
You’re not just sticking the knife in, you’re twisting it… savoring the moment
opening up a hole even time won’t be able to fix
Actually, it’s not your eyes, your mouth or you hands
It’s you
You are the reason I cry myself to sleep
You are the reason I feel empty
You are the reason I feel my blood drip to the bathroom floor
Your existence is the reason I got depression
Depression is a bottomless pit
Never ending pain
Never ending struggles
There is no light
There is no escape
I’m falling off a cliff and I know you’re the one who pushed me
but I’ll promise you this
I’m not going to ever let you mind control me
I’m not going to ever feel weak again because I’ve changed
I didn’t change for you, my friends, my family
I’ve changed for myself
I’m going to climb right back up that cliff
Stronger than ever